“Whatever you do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius and power and magic in it.” ~ Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
I’m cold, tired, and my back hurts. What better time and frame of mind to hammer out some new year’s resolutions. Let’s get started then. I resolve to do the following in 2010 (in no particular order, just as they come to me):
Write more—more frequently, more regularly, more faithfully, and with more purpose.
Read more, well, just because it’s something that I love, and it relaxes me.
Try to get along better with eldest son even though his personality is so much like my ex-husband that sometimes the lines blur.
Get back into a regular exercise program. This is one that I’ve been wanting to do for a long time, but let’s face it: I don’t exercise at home. It’s just not a conducive environment. I need to get back to the gym, a place where I will be shamed into working harder.
Do more with my photography, as in, not just take pictures and leave them on the memory card for months. I love Photoshop, so I should use it more.
In conjunction with Number 5, I would love to get a photo printer, but that’s at te bottom of the priority list.
Get that new Logitech mouse that I’ve been eye-balling for two years. The price has to have come down by now.
Work on our credit score; of course, this one is dependent upon Corey starting a new job and no major problems occurring, but both of us want to accomplish something with this.
Paint my bedroom. No. Still hasn’t been done.
Be a better friend and stay in touch on a more regular basis with everyone who has moved away.
Work on finding a literary agent by the end of 2010. That gives me a year.
Pay back Corey’s parents the money they have loaned us. Must do this.
Try to be more patient with my mother. This is a hard one.
Find the perfect squooshy leather purse so that maybe one day I can purchase it.
Plant flowers in the spring. This used to be so important to me. I need to get back to it.
Go to the Virginia foothills and Skyline Drive. It’s been too many years since we’ve done this, and it doesn’t involve spending a lot of money.
Get a pedicure or two or three. Sweet indulgences are a necessary part of life.
Give up chocolate. Okay, so maybe decrease my chocolate intake. I was able to do this once before, so I have no excuses.
Help to support Corey in his goal to register for college classes. The irony is that if we’d known he be out of work this long, he could have registered a long time ago and already be finished with at least a year of school. Bitter irony.
Get a bird feeder to hang in the back yard where the dogs cannot get to it. I miss my backyard birding.
Be more patient overall. I have gotten more patient and less bitchy in recent years, but I still would like to make fewer assumptions and be less prone to getting upset.
Take my vitamins. No-brainer.
Play the piano more. I am so out of the habit, and this, too, relaxes me.
Try to get on a regular sleep schedule, you know, like normal people.
Declutter. This is a big one as it means that I have to let go of some things, which I don’t like to do, but the decluttering must be done.
Smile more. I’m not a person who smiles a lot, and it’s not because I’m unhappy or angry, I just don’t smile, so maybe I should make a concerted effort to try more, as long as I don’t end up looking like some kind of idiot.
Give back more. Our trials and tribulations have been heavy, but so many others are facing the same and worse. Giving back is the right thing to do.
Go on a retreat. I promised Brett that we would do that this past summer, but then we didn’t have a vehicle or any cash. This year, for certain.
Read more poetry by new writers. I’ve let myself get behind, and there are so many great poets out there just churning out work that needs to be read and shared.
Finally, continue to work on letting go of things from the past. I’m getting much better at this, but I still need to work on it.
“Tenderness and kindness are not signs of weakness and despair but manifestations of strength and resolution” ~ Kahlil Gibran
Admittedly, none of my resolutions are earth-shattering. That’s the whole point. I wanted to create a list of things that are absolutely possible to do within the next year. Nothing on my list involves spending a lot of money; more things involve dedicating time. I have nothing but time, and I need to get back to doing productive things with my time.
Notice that I didn’t put the big one on there about losing weight. I’ve decided that if I start taking better care of myself, stop eating so much chocolate, and get back into exercising, then the weight thing should balance itself. More of that attempt to be realistic.
I wish you luck with whatever resolutions you have made, whether or not you share them. May the coming year be filled with good opportunities, moments of insight and grace, and abundant love and happiness.
More later. Peace.
I really wanted to feature Coldplay’s “The Scientist,” but had a hell of a time finding just the right video. I settled on this one with scenes from the movie Wicker Park (which I haven’t seen yet) as it seems to fit the song better than any of the other ones:
XVII from Pablo Neruda’s Still Another Day
The days aren’t discarded or collected, they are bees
that burned with sweetness or maddened
the sting: the struggle continues,
the journeys go and come between honey and pain.
No, the net of years doesn’t unweave: there is no net.
They don’t fall drop by drop from a river: there is no river.
Sleep doesn’t divide life into halves,
or action, or silence, or honor:
life is like a stone, a single motion,
a lonesome bonfire reflected on the leaves,
an arrow, only one, slow or swift, a metal
that climbs or descends burning in your bones.