“And that time, once so speedy and impatient, is now extremely slow in passing in certain hours of the afternoon, especially at the onset of winter, after the equinox when evening falls treacherously and the lights you weren’t expecting are switched on in the village . . .” ~ Antonio Tabucchi
Saturday, early evening. Rainy and cold, 38 degrees.
I’m baaaaack . . . Did you miss me?
So snow is in the forecast around here. Yesterday it was 60 degrees and beautiful. Of course it’s going to snow. What else would it do here? Secretly, Tillie and I are hoping for snow so that she can go galumphing, and I can take some pictures.
I know that I copped out this past week, but truly, I just couldn’t do it. I hope that I gave you a few chuckles and a bit of food for thought in my interim posts. I don’t know if I had a mild case of the flu (I did get my flu shot this year), or if it was an episode of fibromyalgia, but I was completely out of it, stuck in bed, no energy, alternating between chills and being too warm, an overall ague (love that word). Anyway, I’m on the mend, as if Brett, who was prescribed Tamiflu, and Corey and Eamonn seem to have escaped.
Speaking of Corey, he won’t be leaving until the end of the month. Apparently, the ship blew something (water pump?) while they were in the Azores, and now everything has been bumped by a couple of weeks. I’m mostly glad because we get to keep Corey a bit longer, but I had already gotten myself mentally prepared for him to leave, so now I need to adjust my thinking. Corey is bummed because he was ready and had set up the finances for the six weeks that he would be gone; now he has to adjust all of those scheduled payments.
Can’t win for losing, I suppose.
“Look / maybe this is the place we’ve been /
waiting for, maybe this place / is the day, inside us, inside each /
corpuscle, the day, that day, everyday is / inside, my body, your body,
everyday is / this thread” ~ Nick Flynn, from “Haiku (Failed)”
Yesterday I had an appointment with the neurologist in the new pain management group. I had told Corey pre-appointment that if this doctor wasn’t any different from the last one I saw in December, that I would have to find a new practice because I was very underwhelmed by doctor a who did nothing more than prescribe things.
Turns out doctor b is wonderful, truly wonderful, and I am so glad. I finally have someone who will pay attention to all parts of the equation, who has come up with a plan of action to change my treatment. And most wonderful of all is that he consulted with me instead of talking at me, which is, as you probably already know, a rarity for a physician.
He is tackling my combined chronic pain and migraines in an aggressive way, and I have Botox injections for my migraines scheduled for March. Best of all, I never have to back to doctor a, who had foisted me off on his partners, which means that I never have to go back to the Portsmouth office, another thing for which I am grateful. I really couldn’t tell you just why I am so anti-Portsmouth except that it’s kind of a local thing, which is stupid, so I don’t really have a reason other than I really hate to go through the Portsmouth tunnels (either one) because they are sooo narrow and dark, and my claustrophobia really kicks in.
“Life is the farce we all have to lead.” ~ Arthur Rimbaud
I sat down to write hours ago, but then became distracted in trying to find attributions for my images, which are all by Italian artist Federica Galli, who died in 2009. I was able to find lost of images of her work, but very few had titles or years of creation, both of which I like to include whenever I insert works of art with my posts.
Anyway, hours later, I finally found the information on all of the images that I had chosen, but had found that I had sort of run out of steam, so I decided to have a hot shower and a cup of tea and then to try again. So shower, tea, biscotti (110 calories), not back again. Since I haven’t written anything in several days, I thought that I’d add some random observations from the past few weeks.
Here they are:
- Are there actually people out there who still listen to what Dick Cheney has to say? Why?
- RNC Chair Reince Priebus (what kind of name is that) thinks that Republicans just need to smile more when delivering their message, which he does not believe needs to be changed. Smile? Really? This will fix what ails you?
- Convicted pedophile and self-proclaimed prophet of the LDS Warren Jeffs just looks like a pedophile, know what I mean?
- The pope is resigning. Conspiracy buffs proceed to salivate.
- The people on the ill-fated cruise ship that lost power deserve a lot more than $500 after being given red bags in which to, er, empty their bodily waste. The embarrassment alone is worth at least $1,000.
- No one remembers what Marco Rubio said in his SoU rebuttal because of the whole sweating thing.
- The minimum wage should be raised. If you disagree, try to live on $9 an hour for one month, and then get back to me.
“So many things I had thought forgotten
Return to my mind with strange pain:
—Like letters that arrived addressed to someone
Who left the house so many years ago.” ~ Philip Larkin, from “Why Did I Dream of You Last Night”
I’ve decided once again that Valentine’s Day is a stupid holiday, and I kind of wish that I hadn’t bought everyone cards.
Life is too short . . .
- to drink cheap coffee
- not to enjoy good chocolate
- not to have at least five types of tea on the shelf at any given time
- to wait for the right time to see other parts of the world
- to hate your hair and not do something about it
- not to spring for a good cable package, one that includes BBC America, AMC, and Sundance
- to think that pedicures are luxury and not a necessity
- to eschew playing in the snow
- to pretend that cookies aren’t a food staple
- not to read poetry
- to spend time with people you don’t really like (this one is from a roommate I had in college, and I appreciate it more as I get older)
“Every life is inexplicable, I kept telling myself. No matter how many facts are told, no matter how many details are given, the essential thing resists telling.” ~ Paul Auster
And some random thoughts, just because:
- Carson and the Dowager Duchess are my favorite characters on “Downton Abbey”
- I keep telling myself that I could design/sew if I just had a sewing machine. This is nonsense, of course.
- My dreams never included zombies until I started watching “The Walking Dead.” I blame Corey for this.
- Apparently many insects are a good source of protein and have no fat. Knowing this still does not make me want to try scorpions on a stick. However, if the zombie apocalypse does rear its ugly head, I promise to rethink this.
- Costco is selling emergency ration packages, anything from three days worth of food to weeks worth. Are their marketing people watching “The Walking Dead”?
- Is it weird that I really want to own a good shredder?
- And a sword?
- In the last few years, I have reduced my news sources to “The Daily Show” and tumblr, and I am still probably more informed than most people in the U.S.
- If I subscribe to NetFlix, I may never have to leave the house again . . .
That’s all for now.
More later. Peace.
Music by Birdy, “Just a Game”
Two trees stand in the snow,
tired of the light, the sky
heads home—nothing nearby
where the gloom makes its abode.
And behind those trees,
houses tower in the dark.
Now you hear someone speak,
now the dogs begin to bark
The round, beloved moonlight
lamp appears in the house.
When again the light goes out
A gaping wound remains in sight.
What a small life to know
and so much nothingness nearby.
Tired of the light, the sky
has given everything to the snow.
The two trees dance with grace,
bend their heads and nod.
Clouds race across the sod
of the world’s silent face.
~ Robert Walser
(Revised version (w. restored rhyme scheme) of Daniele Pantano’s translation)